What if someone just cannot allow themselves to let go of something because it reminds them so profoundly of the person who has gone? What if this holding on to the past has become self destructive, to the point where objects are taking over? The Dialogue with my Father series are performative videos which confront the loss and grief of an intergenerational father-daughter relationship through the insistent presence of the piano.
With particular focus on the piano that belonged to my father’s family, on which he used to compose, I push the heavy bulk of this domestic, upright instrument around on the concrete floor trying and failing to find it space in the room. Frustration strips the piano of its dignity, tortured and destroyed. Braced, it fights back stoically, belligerent, vibrating a dance to its raucous rumbling, dainty wheels twist in agony under its defiant weight, before taking you on a mesmerising journey inside the piano accompanied by a composition that gives voice to its involuntary creeks and resonances.
2025 screened as part of Dialogues by Sophie Standford (UK)
DIVFUSE Film Archive No.1 with a theme on domesticity.