What if someone just cannot allow themselves to let go of something because it reminds them so profoundly of the person who has gone? What if this holding on to the past has become self destructive, to the point where objects are taking over? This body of work contemplates the loss and grief of an intergenerational father-daughter relationship through the insistent presence of the piano.
Dialogue with my Father
2022-2025
Single channel colour HD video
stereo sound composition
Duration: 7’20”
Location: Suffolk
This moving image work explores the inter-generational relationship between father and daughter; grief and loss; the piano that belonged to my father, on which he used to compose. I push the heavy bulk of this domestic, upright instrument around on the concrete floor trying and failing to find it space in the room. Frustration strips the piano of its dignity, tortured and destroyed. Braced, it fights back stoically, belligerent, vibrating a dance to its raucous rumbling, dainty wheels twist in agony under its defiant weight, before taking you on a mesmerising journey inside the piano accompanied by a composition that gives voice to its involuntary creeks and resonances.
2025 screened as part of Dialogues by Sophie Standford (UK) DIVFUSE Film Archive No.1 with a theme on domesticity.
Dialogue with my Father: Piano
2023 Single channel colour HD video
stereo sound
Duration: 8’00” Location: Suffolk
Piano is a performed act. I push the heavy weight of this upright instrument around on the concrete floor trying and failing to find it space in the room.
Dialogue with my Father: Meno Mosso
2019 Single channel colour HD video
stereo sound
Duration: 5’20” Location: Suffolk
Meno Mosso is a short film which focuses on the piano that belonged to my father, on which he used to compose. The title comes from his Cello Concerto manuscript score, written the year I was born, entrusted to me as literary executor, handwritten on tracing paper in preparation for print.
Dialogue with my Father: the archive (work on paper)
The extraordinary responsibility of sorting and caring for the archive of another artist; the proximity to their presence through handwritten manuscripts and notes; regret for the unspoken dialogues. An ongoing palimpsest of works on paper still bearing visible traces of the original hand.